The Hardest Part

Communicatioin is hard enough by itself. You need to do alot of thimking,understanding and listening.Speaking is I think the easiest way to communicate but listening is the hardest. When you try to communicate, you do not just simply talk just to share your views and opinion to someone but it's more into listening to the thought of somebody. Communication is present everywhere but not in our house.We live in one roof but we have different atmosphere at our house.I have a good relationship with my two brothers but not to my prents.I was once even convinced that they have aliens living inside their bodies.That they are not happy with everything that makes me happy.I feel that they do not understand me or respect me as an individual.This thought of mine created a space to our "already-spaced" relationship.

I may say that me and my parents does not really get along well, but saying this doesn't mean that I do not love them. I love my parents because they gave me life and whether I'll like it or not they will still be my crying shoulder soon.I do not really know if how does this relationship of ours started so wrong. When I was still young, as I have rememberred, I feel so pampered by them, but when my mom started to work, nobody was left for us because my dad is also working abroad.Yes I know that they really want to give us the most comfortable life in this world but my parents did not realize that life without a parents personal care is bare. And that's exactly how I felt until now. As a child by then, I grew up in the care of my aunt.And you know what,I became more comfortable sharing my secrets to my aunt than to them. Sharing my problems to somebody is really a big deal to me as a teen ager. I mean I'm growing and I need a support.It's just so sad that I can't turn to them.I envy my classmates and friends who have good relationships with their parents especially with their mom .I could just think of the times when I feel so down and that how much I wanted to talk to my mother and share my feelings to her.I want to establish a friendship with my mom,a deeper friendship,but it seems that we are from Earth to Pluto apart. My friends have told me to try to talk to her but how can I start?
actually I have tried once but she just made me feel more uncomfortable with her. I tried to share something to her but instead of listening to me she give a talk and told me that the talk was useless(ouch!). From then on I have learned something."Listening is really the hardest way to communicate but finding a listener is the hardest part."