Sunday, January 21, 2007

Listen to what I’m not saying

Don’t be fooled by me., Don’t be fooled by the thousand masks I wear. I give the impression that I’m secure but the truth is that I’m not. I may give you a feeling that everything within me is sunny and unruffled, that waters are calm and that I’m in command and needs no one. Don’t dare t o believe what you see outside of me because no matter how hard you look at me you’ll never get to know me that way. When you want to know me…….then you’ve got to listen to what I’m not saying.

My name is Ella Beverly Sarmago. I’m 16 yrs of age and born on March 8, 1990(huh! what’s the big deal?) .Obviously I was born under the sign of the fishes, Pisces. Pisces women are said to be intuitive and creative. The first one maybe true but the latter one…….me creative...don’t wait for my answer. Anyway were getting out of the topic, I decided to make this entry as my first because I want the readers to have a little idea of what kind of a person I am. You know, to avoid being prejudged. I am really afraid of being prejudged because people always do that to me. They say that I am “maarte” and that’s always the first impression of the people I meet. It hurts me a lot especially when you’ll know that their basis is just the way that you dress. I often get to ask myself that, is there really something wrong about being a “fascious” (fashion conscious) person. I’m not denying the fact that I’m a vain person and I think that there’s nothing wrong with that. I mean every woman has the right to feel beautiful and those people can’t take that away from me. I love to satisfy myself by looking good in front of the mirror. And besides, what do they expect from me, to dress as if I’m a boy. Hey! I maybe an unpredictable person but I’m definitely sure about my sexuality. I’m a certified female. My favorite color is pink,uh no ,it’s pink forever. My celebrity crush is Brad Pitt(yeah that brawny man) and I may forget my notebooks for school but never my lip gloss and lotion.. Take it or leave it, that’s me. I’m vain but I’m not “maarte”. If those people just took time to know me then maybe I can prove them wrong. My friends at my school say that I’m “kalog” and I’m not denying that. I really have a crazy mind especially when I’m with my best bud. My best friend and I have been crazy friends foe almost four years. And trust me when were together, always expect the worse from us. We even have our motto….”For worse or for worst…..till failures do us part” Quite famillar.isn’t it? My friend and I almost have the same traits but one thing that differs me from her is that I’m a very secretive person. I rarely share my secrets to her but I often know her secrets because she wants to share it. It’s unfair for her part but she got used to it.We love to do a lot of talking, that has actually become our hobby. Aside from talking we also love to watch t.v. We may be doing the same thing almost everyday but I do one thing that she does not. I read and she rarely do it. I read but I’m not a bookworm. I love to read books that talks about the real world, I’m not a fan of fictional novels, I get easily tired of imagining or picturing scenes. What else could I share? I think I’ve shed enough information about me. Maybe you still think that it’s just a little information, but remember I’ve told you before that I’m a secretive person. Sharing a part of me to the public is already a big deal.

So who really am I, you may wonder………..I am every woman, every man, every child….every human…….I am anything but ordinary.